Take Heart!

I never wanted it to be this way, but you’re all I’ve been able to think about these days;

Your name has been mentioned lately so much, that I can almost once again feel your touch; but I don’t.

It’s been almost two years since you left me, nine months since we last spoke.

My spirit seems to be running on empty, and my heart seems to be broke; but is it?

I don’t know what feelings you have towards me, if any feelings at all.

But my mind is racing, thinking, we could one day be back together and fall… back in to what we had.

So goodnight my dear, it’ll be another month til we can talk;

Just know I’m praying for your journey; as you keep exploring on your walk.

I pray for you each night, that God will heal your hurt.

And He’ll take away your pain, and show you what you’re worth.

End rant.

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“We… We never met face to face, but I heard your daughter say; you had some things to say… About me. About my looks. About how I dress. About everything about me apparently. You see, I see through you. You’re afraid that I’m gonna be like a guy that you once knew. But, it’s not true. Unlike him, I know about respect, expect me to treat her right. Expect me to be THE guy.. That sweeps her off her feet. Like Christ did to me… Alright? Because of you, we’ll never know what could have been. But I press on, and live life the best I can.”

I’d like to think there is more to life than this. Than questioning everything I ever knew to be true. But is there? Are we meant for more? What’s the point to living a life full of regret? I stood outside earlier, and watched the trees make shade over me. I realized that the trees that were refreshing me, would be pointless with out the sun. In the same way, we are pointless without purpose. If we don’t have a purpose what is the point of living. Find your purpose! Need help? Tell me about it.

…but I need to vent.

I’m tired of our generation of christians. We are fake. We know it. And we could care less. This isn’t a judgemental rant, I’m part of the problem. God is huge, and can forgive anything we do, but what good is his forgiveness if we don’t care about it. We show him we don’t care by preaching one thing and living another. It tears my heart apart to hear kids say one thing, and see them live something different. What good are we doing? Only condeming ourselves. If I was God I would have damned us all to hell, and be done with it. His compassion and mercy; I will never understand, but am so grateful for.

I’m done… Watching some weird asian cooking show, as I go to sleep.